Stigmata
Disabilities can be hard to even watch. I personally have a speech impediment that makes it harder to convey my thoughts and feelings on any subject. It also, is a little bit demeaning to be honest, in a way that makes me feel like I’m a charity case…
After watching a brief video from imtyler.org, I found myself motivated, a little sad, and quite irritated at myself all at the same time. Whenever I’ve seen others who have coped with disabilities, I’ve remembered what I’ve experienced in coping with my issues. Sure, there are things that I can’t do as well as some, but I never wanted to put limits on myself in terms of what I could and couldn’t do. In all my time spent thinking of ways to get around certain words so as not to stutter, I’ve come to the realization that I can’t get around this. I have to work through it.
I have to work with it; and hopefully find a happy medium that will make things easier for me.
In high school, I sometimes didn’t go to class because of a presentation by pretending to be ill. This kind of avoidance started to become a pattern in my life, and a big problem. It was only when I tried to let go of the images of everyone who was watching me struggle, did I come to some kind of peace with myself.
I know that people do judge. I judge. It’s hard to let go of a misconception, or that barrier that divides people who have a disability and people who don’t. A long time went by, and I didn’t understand or didn’t want to…
There was a student who had a similar speech impediment, and I recall being irritated at him! After I figured out it was my reflection stuttering back at me, did I have a weird empathy for this person.
Diversity is what makes life, people, and even blog posts interesting. Discovering that everyone has their own flaws is actually a comforting thought, as well as Human. They may not be as noticeable, but they are there nonetheless. And you know what?
It’s okay to have flaws.
It’s okay to not be perfect.
For what is Human Perfection? It’s a beautiful, flawed individual who keeps hope in their heart.
“The gods envy us. They envy us because we’re mortal, because any moment may be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.” – “Troy” the movie
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